Four times moving from the old school and the new school across cities because of my parents' ego. They fought over everything; money, religion, and social status, which made them move houses separately. Mom and dad have different religions. My mom is a Moslem and my dad is a Christian. When I live with mom I am a Moslem, but she never taught me how to pray. And when I live with dad I am a Christian, but he never took me to church. I gave myself a pseudo; JVSAN, with all caps, to remind myself that I am on my own. Not because I hated my birth name, but because I hated the one who created it. Jusan. Got rid of the U because I hate you. Here I am, the not-so-wanted-MBA-kid. I have never believed in religion, the same as I have never been close to my parents. But I believe in God... and music... 'cause I have nothing to hold on to. Music was my escape, so I gave everything I had. I woke up early every day to get ready for school before my parents woke up. I never had breakfast or a cup of tea to enjoy the sunrise. Whenever I go out of my room, I walk past a dark corridor